Dear Diary

English isn't my first language, but I feel more free and comfortable to express my thoughts and feelings in English. Plus it's the "international" language.

I've always wanted to write about my life, but I never knew how to start.

What if I started with... today ?

January 21th, 2019.

Dear Diary,

Can't believe it's already 2019, and almost the end of the first Month.

I haven't set my goals yet. When you set goals you need a plan to reach them.

Some of my goals are the same since 2010 :

-Loose weight

-be hot

-find love...

That is mostly why I haven't set my goals yet. I am scared...

I "failed" all the other years and the purpose of setting goals for the new year is to refresh, to motivate yourself, to be positive about what is coming.

But just the thought of loosing weight makes me anxious, and find love, worse !

I don't want to be disappointed by myself because if I failed again. See it sounds negative !

I am not saying that I failed my life, but I failed reaching some of my goals.

To be honest for a long period, I was thinking that I was failing my life, that I had a shitty life. Until I've learned to celebrate every single success. And celebrating even the tiny success changed my life.

Yes, I may failed reaching some of my goals but not all of them. And every time I was trying I was learning something new.

I HAVE A PLAN to set my goals. Build a context.

First of all, I have to list most of the success, goals that I reached for 2017/2018.

Secondly, I have to list all the positive and "negative" points that I've been facing on the way to reach my goals. Note what I can do again and what I cannot repeat.

Finallly, define in what stage of my life I am into right now, feelings, selflove, career, studies...

Xoxo

R.